“Janam kab lena hai aur marna kab hai, ye hum decide nahi kar sakte. Lekin kesse jeena hai, ye hum decide kar sakte hai”
I almost thought that I wouldn’t be able to watch the film. But pausing in between, replaying it every 30 seconds to get a glimpse at him I somehow completed it. I don’t know. There isn’t any specific feeling that I have after watching it. Just a heavy feeling trying to hold back tears. How would Sushant feel if he had gotten a chance to see his premier? Nobody knows, though as he said, I know ‘vo yahi bhoot banker sab kuch dekh raha hoga!’
I just can’t help but wonder if all this was a way of the Universe, and it just wouldn’t have it otherwise. Sushant’s such playfulness, something that I have never seen before, that cander, those deep meaning dialogues of death. Was it just a movie? Or was it a way Sushant wanted to leave all of us with his last memory?
Every time I looked at him I couldn’t take my eyes of his wonderful smile. A zest or sheer excitement of being alive in his eyes. The madness of getting to play a DDLJ scene an imitating SRK on screen and that innocent smile. Damn! That smile!
The movie was a lesson for me. To live my life to the fullest, kyuki jeena kaise hai hum decide kar sakte hai! Our generation is constantly ranting about being single, not successful, stuck, losing our sleepover social media and waiting for social acceptance, while making our lives completely shallow.
What I learnt from Sushant is to have a life beyond your work, to be unapologetic about begin different and finding time to do everything you love. And my real tribute to him will be my life lived to the fullest. No matter what. Coz, until there’s life. There’s HOPE.
Lastly, after crying like a baby I couldn’t even begin to imagine what the people close to Sushant must feel at the moment. Sanjana has done an amazing job in the debut, Mukesh phenomenal direction. Not to mention both of them are the luckiest ever to have been a part of Sushant’s last work of MAGIC.
I wanted to meet him just once, but couldn’t. But I know He is alive as love in our hearts and will always continue to be. Love and Light to his family and friends.
Meet you on the other side.
I Miss You,
Seri? Immaneul Rajkumar Junior.